options

i cant help but know and realize there is an easy way out.

i shouldn't torture myself by looking online and seeing

the thousands of jobs that are available back in new york,

that i could easily get with no worries about

legal papers and legit documentation

of who i am and where i belong.

i like my life here and i want to keep it that way

but 'shouldn't you be a little more realistic?' says my mother.

its just the december blues.

the end of a year and the start of a new one.